Today hurt- a lot. Nothing will ever be able to take any of it away, no matter how much I'm told that it will get better. I'm not saying I'll still have these doubts. But still, I will always remember this pain, no matter how much I wish I never had to encounter it in the first place. Also, I guess I won't be able to rid myself of the deep inadequacy I tend to feel, either. It doesn't make sense for me to feel this strongly or to care this much, but I do anyway. I have no doubt in my mind that I will. Only this time, I will try very, very hard not to just assume things. I'm going to calm myself and think logically, and hopefully my emotions don't drive me to do anything stupid or reckless before I get even that far. I will tackle things straight on. It's a lot better that way. I'm always going to love anyway, so I might as well just suck it up, and make the effort to be the one who salvages everything. We've come too far to just give up. ♥