-3.25? I'm going blind!

My eyesight is getting worse! D:

I went to the NEx optical to order some new glasses. At first, my mom was telling me that I had to keep my old frames with the new lenses because it's cheaper. So, when we get there I hand her my old frames and walk over to the displays anyway. I found a bunch of really cute glasses, including the above pair by Vera Wang, but they were all at least $100. >x3 I was in love with that specific design, too! They looked hella good on me. ;) I did find a pair that was only $40, and my mom ended up buying it because it wasn't too expensive, compared to my last pair that was priced at $149.99. She also bought me a new contact lens case, so I won't have to use the cheap plastic ones that come free with the rewetting drops. (:

My colored contact samples came in yesterday. I hated them; sample contacts always suck ass because they're so difficult to put in and they sting like a bitch. >xO The amethyst wasn't pretty at all in my eyes, which ended up just turning gray with them in. Honey was weird looking, because it was really close to my skin tone and had the slightest tint of orange. Orange eyes?! Nope, not for me. I decided on green, recommended by my mom, my dad, my sister, and the eye care technician from my eye appointment. They're not an overpowering green, but it is pretty dark. Kind of like this. But not really, because you'd have to see it in real life. It's not even obvious indoors, which I like. So I'm going to be walking around with green eyes for about a year. A green-eyed Asian, kekeke. ;D

I'm on my last pair of contacts right now. I only have one left in the box. ONE CONTACT, not one pair. A pair is supposed to last you about a month, and I've been wearing this one since the last day of February. They're only going to last me for this week, and my new contacts won't be coming in for another 7-10 days! D: I don't want to have to wear glasses during tour. OH NOEZ!

Heidi+glasses=not cute

Unless you have that kind of fetish, BAHAHA. >xD

I'm fatally inconsistent.

I like punching things; it makes my knuckles feel good and I like seeing that stripe of red skin around my knuckles. But I don't like hurting other people because it makes me feel really bad. Doesn't this sound conflicted to you? People don't believe me, and they always take me for some sadist even though I'm just a weakling. I am by no means a living weapon! :/

I've had "Boom Boom Boom Boom" stuck in my head all day. No lie. We were watching "Madagascar" in Spanish, so I decided to sleep. Only, I couldn't because I had that "whoa oh, whoa oh" part stuck in my head and it just. Wouldn't. LEAVE. During the logarithm test in fifth period I was completely confused on a lot of it, and I kept hearing "I want you in my room, let's spend the night together...". It's so bad. Never ever listen to '90s music the day before a test. Ironically, annoying bubblegum pop music is what I typically listen to while I work on essays and such. x] I don't know, I actually just tune them out anyway instead of listening. I think my mind recorded it, though, and forced me to play it back. Darn my love for chessy '90s music! It's so addicting.

//edit: I realize now, after listening to it AGAIN, that my heart beats in time with the song. Not with every 'BOOM', but pretty close. Especially the part that says, "I wanna go BOOM BOOM." My heart always goes BOOM BOOM perfectly with the song there. That's just the effect music has on me, I guess. :3

Today in Martial Arts, Mr. Sullivan decided to finally have Novice Black Belt testing for Sarah and Wil. And those goshdarn Freshman came in again! Go finish writing your essays and get your grade up, geez. Your mom grounded you for a reason, and getting a pass out of that class isn't helping you too much, hon'. Anyway, since me and Sarah are relatively the same height (I say "relatively" because I'm taller. Oh yeah! ^-^) Sullivan kept picking me to be the one to give her surprise headlocks. Unlike the time with Cristina, I was actually successful in both attempts at landing my flying headlocks. >:] The first one was a regular headlock, and I did a good job at "being realistic." YAAAAY~ The second time I just ran behind her and jumped to get some extra air before getting a hold of her neck. Mr. Sullivan was like, "WHOA! Heidi over here flying and doing jumping moves like a chola!" And then someone corrected him and said I was more like a "bro-ha"- whatever that is. I'm almost positive that I'd rather be compared to a chola. (/_- No, that wasn't the comparison I was going for; I wanted to look like some small Asian female ninja! :3 It was a good day, and I feel like I kind of redeemed myself for getting uber pwned during the last NBB test. Amir asked about Red Belt testing for me, Taejung, and Carlo, and now I know that next belt test is coming up in May. Next month. O_O Shit, I only have one stripe while the guys have three already! I really need to step it up!

On another note, Spring Break is less than 24 hours away! It's so close, now. And then tour is coming up in two weeks! I'm not too stoked on it anymore though, because there are just so many rules for it this year and it doesn't seem as if the ultra-epicness of last year is going to apply to us this year. I'm pretty darn sure my mom is going to demand that I be chaperoned, too. >x[ FML. I wish Concert Strings and Chamber could've been at Disneyland together, because that's what I was looking forward to the most. I mean, I wanted to go get Icees with Mark and buy shit I don't need with a BIG group! BUT NO, Concert has to go to Disneyland on a completely different day than us. That sucks a worthog's balls dry. -____-

Commas aren't my favorite punctuation mark, but they're the most prevalent in my writing. I like exclamation marks and the ~ sign, but neither are appropriate to use everywhere. :T

HAHA, sometimes I just have nothing to blog about. Sometimes I have a really good idea for a blog, like something higly philosophical or thought-provoking. But they all come to me at the most inopportune times or when I'm too busy doing something important to remember my awesome ideas. And then you, my lovely readers, are faced with this sort of utter crap when you log into Blogger and read your blog updates.

I'm scared.

I'm on my period.
I'm on my period.
I'm on my period.
I'm on my period.
I'm on my period.~

Okay. For the past week, I was looking forward to trying out those new pads but now I'm not so sure anymore. >:/

You've got to be kidding. /)_-

This is ridiculous. The first time I played Wii Fit, it told me I was 29 years old. That same day, I ate exactly two potato chips and immediately tried again. That time I turned out to be perfectly 16 years old- spot on. (: But come on, I'm not healthy enough to physically be only 13.6 years old. 9_9

Today hurt- a lot. Nothing will ever be able to take any of it away, no matter how much I'm told that it will get better. I'm not saying I'll still have these doubts. But still, I will always remember this pain, no matter how much I wish I never had to encounter it in the first place. Also, I guess I won't be able to rid myself of the deep inadequacy I tend to feel, either. It doesn't make sense for me to feel this strongly or to care this much, but I do anyway. I have no doubt in my mind that I will. Only this time, I will try very, very hard not to just assume things. I'm going to calm myself and think logically, and hopefully my emotions don't drive me to do anything stupid or reckless before I get even that far. I will tackle things straight on. It's a lot better that way. I'm always going to love anyway, so I might as well just suck it up, and make the effort to be the one who salvages everything. We've come too far to just give up. ♥